So sorry to hear this. There seems to be a pattern with people with prior opioid use, especially pharma ones if that is what yours was but that doesn't help you right now. It also sounds like if you can't discern the affects between strains you may have a very high tolerance. Those doses would make me vomit daily and give me wobbles, dizzy spells and heart palpitations. From what I have read on the limited research on this plant there are some other alkaloids in the plant that can colour o