Hi, I am really sorry to hear that. How come the horrible feelings got less the longer you stayed on it? I was rotating 4 strains from Indonesia, one of them, the reds did not work, so I was unknowingly going without for one day out of four. I'm doing better on Kratom birds green borneo but I still feel "out-of-sorts" especially the awakenings on a morning, it takes me a few hours to get over them. I tried taking my prescription benzo when I woke up at stupid o'clock but I must have got toxic