They're not that expensive I just got mine from there again, I had stuff from them that I bought back in 2021 and compared it to their new stuff, it's just as good as it was before, it's possible you just developed a tolerance to kratom and you tried them when you were new so you felt like it was really special, a bit like everyone that is certain mdma was way better when it first came out. I got their matcha green which imo has always been their best, I don't care for their other strains mayb