I became dependent on it for mood. It did the job that an antidepressant would do but without the usual side effects, which was good, but also became a chain around my neck for three years. Anytime I needed to be away from the house for 15 hours (work) or spending a day or more away for social reasons, I'd need to discreetly carry the necessary doses to avoid withdrawal. At my height I'd be using 50g a day. Being illegal in the UK, there was always a concern that I'd get caught with it. Next t