Martin, so I’m going to guess you’re of the male persuasion. When did you last have sex? Masturbate? I’m not taking the piss it’s a genuine question and you don’t have to say here. Not important? That might be the kratom. You can aim for a stable relationship but are you sure an anaesthetic is the best you can do? The thing is you’re on an opiate, with respect you’re making potentially important (fun) decisions under the influence - you’d be surprised how few people are “immune” to the cliches