wow that crazy amounts, im glad kratom has stopped you from killing yourself with pills, im in the uk to. All I can say is try to keep your kratom dosage to under 10g per day, I was able to do this for over 5 years and still get my doses to work strong but i didnt have to take breaks to reset. Not sure if it would work for you but I now have a medical cannabis prescription which is now easy to get here if you didnt know already and have found using in the evenings a great alternative to my kra