Some of us just NEED to have **something**. Yeah, it's sad, yeah, it's weak, but imo- the worst part about it is 99% of people not being able to understand; even if they care about you and try really hard to. Good luck, brother. I'm trying not to go back to strong opiates right now, but, is being a grumpy, miserable alcoholic really a better option?? (kratom has gone from even being an option for me I think)