Is there a ban on the way? That would be a reason to slow down. I say this knowing that I'm a hypocrite because I am exactly like you in that regard. I've had issues all my life not being able to quit stuff. Addictive personality deluxe. Do you try to take smaller doses at least? Periodically? Where I am it has been banned and no shops sell it as of March this year. I have no choice. I dread the day I start on my last 500gr bag. It makes me sad and terrified.